Did you ever see the movie Driving Miss Daisy? Great movie, outstanding actors. So now, I need my own Morgan Freeman.
Why? Not for convenience, not for special mall parking privileges – I already have a handicap parking pass for close parking on the days I can drive. So why…cognitive issues…that’s why! We all have our days (most of us anyway) when things slip your mind, forgetful, etc. But MS’ers get to have very special memory issues. Aren’t we special!
I get lost, right here in my home town, born and raised in OKC, and I get lost. I was at Penn Square, lord knows how I got there, and needed to go to Walmart, which is right next door. I could see it, but did not know how to get there, a one block drive. Everyone knows how to get to a Walmart – not me! I had to go back home and start from scratch to go to my friendly neighborhood Walmart. And even getting back home was difficult, I took the wrong road, the wrong highway, and ran a red light. I saw the light turn red, but my brain time in processing things it sees to reaction is 3.8 seconds. Your time – a fraction of a second, literally a nano second. Yep – major lesion on the Occipital Lobe, bummer. So what did the docs do??? You guessed it, they took my keys away for two months, until I had improved.
There are still many days a week I take them away from myself. If I miss a light, get lost, or even too fatigues to drive. Many times the fatigue is such I call my older son Bennett to pick me up where ever I may be, to deliver me home. I feel for my boys, watching their mom struggle to walk, talk (I stutter horribly and cannot recall words) and be in pain. It’s difficult to see their face as I climb the stairs into the house on my hands and knees. BUT – there is good in all things. They have learned perseverance, compassion, and how to be adaptable. They have learned that you can’t sweat the small stuff, to take joy in the simple things in life, and in the scheme of things in this journey we are all on, that it’s not about what you can or cannot do, it’s about the living, and living well!